You’ve gotta land the plane. Only you.

I read a screenshot right before writing this. It said $999 to start a business-too much, $999 for an iphone - no problem. 2 hours to watch Netflix- Yes, 1 more episode, 2 hours to learn a new skill - no time.

My musings this week has been re-realizing what I already know. I’m the master of my own life. If I choose to eat sugary foods and exceed my calories, it’ll show on the scale. If I choose whole foods within my calories, it’ll show too.

If I sleep instead of working, it’ll show. If I work, it’ll show.

If I don’t eat for days and lose 5 kg, what happens when I eat? I’ll gain it back because I didn’t build the habits I needed to live life at -5kg.

There’s absolutely no short cut in life. Whether I cry, beg, claw or not, time will pass, I’ll grow older, the weight won’t budge, I won’t get that promotion, won’t achieve that goal until I do the work.

In school, I feared failure, so the thing that kept me going was that fear.

Nowadays, when I feel this way, I just do nothing. They fear is no longer enough. I feel the fear, I see the failure, but I feel detached from it at the same time. It’s just no longer enough fuel, yet I have to achieve these goals somehow.

The day I decide to overcome is the day I overcome. The day I put in the work, is the day my success draws near. It’s all me. No one else.

The thing about doing the necessary is the continuity. It must be why I’ve done may short term diets, done may short term study. I seem to be able to muster up the zeal/energy I need to put in the work for the short term, but it never lasts. Once I come close to the goal/ the exam done, I’m in sloth mode again.

My question these days is “how do I become consistent?”. If I look at it the same way I look at diet plans, then I need to build a life plan with task that are easy to achieve daily.

Something that to requires almost no effort daily, but adds up.

I know they’ll be no perfect plan. I’ll need to change it up as I go along, but right now, I need one that can propel me forward for the next 2-5 years, but I’m not sure what it is yet.

I hope when I come back to this post in a year or two, I have implemented my plan and it has compounded some small wins for me.